If you haven’t figured
it out, I have an unhealthy obsession with the movie 500 Days of Summer.
I’ve only watched it several times and have been craving to sit down and watch
it 500 more times. I think the reason why I love it so much is because
of how much I can relate to both characters, how despite the differences
between Summer and Tom, I find pieces of myself lying deep inside them.
I find myself being able to relate to Summer’s inability to remain
consistent and her carefree nature while being able to relate Tom’s
infatuation and addiction. I can relate to Summer’s desire to live with
no rules while being able to put myself in Tom’s shoes with his desire
to settle down. The ending of the movie didn’t live up to a lot of
people’s expectations because no one ever wants to believe that in the
end, love can still be unrequited. Movies, songs, books, they all give
us this idea that we’re all going to be happy someday. That one day,
we’ll meet our soulmate when we least expect it, fall in love, fuck
everything up, and that person will still come running towards you in
the end. They all fool us to believe that we’re all destined to have a
happy ending. The ending and the plot of this movie wasn’t intended to
be “cute” or “beautiful”, it was meant to be real. It was meant to
capture true heartbreak, and the raw feelings of falling completely in
love with someone, giving your heart and everything you have, only to
receive none of it back. It’s meant to show us that unrequited love
happens. It’s meant to capture loss, confusion and the feeling we all
feel when we over-analyze every little detail about what could’ve went
wrong. It’s meant to show us that what we thought was fate, might have
other plans.
Which brings me to my next point, fear. I have this theory that if we took away everyone’s fear in this world, many people would die but more would live. Actually live. Everything that I’ve witnessed recently have revolved around this concept of being too afraid. Too afraid of saying how one feels because they’re too afraid of rejection. Too afraid of putting oneself out there because they’re too afraid of not being enough. Too afraid of feeling something because they’re too afraid of getting hurt. Too afraid of living because they feel too safe in their own little comfort zone. Too afraid of falling in love because they’re too afraid of falling out of it. Too afraid to be with someone because they’re too afraid that one day they’ll leave. It’s just one of those concepts that I understand, but I will never get. I understand that people have reasons behind their fears but I don’t get someone can let their fear overpower their heart. I don’t see how some people would rather wonder and not know for the rest of their lives instead of taking a risk and giving their heart what it truly wants. I see so many beautiful people, sitting around wanting so many beautiful things, thinking that it will just be given to them one day. That right now, is just not the right time, that the right time will come. But the thing is, there is no “right” time and there is no “wrong” time. There is just time and it’s ticking, everyday. Then I see people who are too afraid to feel anything, too afraid to open up their hearts so they push the people away who make them feel vulnerable, feel wanted. Fear holds us back from living, from going after what we truly want. I don’t think one can ever regret a decision made by one’s heart. That even if your mind is telling you to not jump, even when your mind is telling you that you’ll get fucked over in the end, the decisions you make with your heart are those that you’ll always remember. You’ll always remember those moments where you actually felt something, even if they were temporary and the ending was messy. You’ll always remember those moments where your desire overpowered your fear. Everyone always says “we only have one life to live, you never know if tomorrow exists”, but if we really truly believed that, how differently would we live our lives?
Which brings me to my next point, fear. I have this theory that if we took away everyone’s fear in this world, many people would die but more would live. Actually live. Everything that I’ve witnessed recently have revolved around this concept of being too afraid. Too afraid of saying how one feels because they’re too afraid of rejection. Too afraid of putting oneself out there because they’re too afraid of not being enough. Too afraid of feeling something because they’re too afraid of getting hurt. Too afraid of living because they feel too safe in their own little comfort zone. Too afraid of falling in love because they’re too afraid of falling out of it. Too afraid to be with someone because they’re too afraid that one day they’ll leave. It’s just one of those concepts that I understand, but I will never get. I understand that people have reasons behind their fears but I don’t get someone can let their fear overpower their heart. I don’t see how some people would rather wonder and not know for the rest of their lives instead of taking a risk and giving their heart what it truly wants. I see so many beautiful people, sitting around wanting so many beautiful things, thinking that it will just be given to them one day. That right now, is just not the right time, that the right time will come. But the thing is, there is no “right” time and there is no “wrong” time. There is just time and it’s ticking, everyday. Then I see people who are too afraid to feel anything, too afraid to open up their hearts so they push the people away who make them feel vulnerable, feel wanted. Fear holds us back from living, from going after what we truly want. I don’t think one can ever regret a decision made by one’s heart. That even if your mind is telling you to not jump, even when your mind is telling you that you’ll get fucked over in the end, the decisions you make with your heart are those that you’ll always remember. You’ll always remember those moments where you actually felt something, even if they were temporary and the ending was messy. You’ll always remember those moments where your desire overpowered your fear. Everyone always says “we only have one life to live, you never know if tomorrow exists”, but if we really truly believed that, how differently would we live our lives?
