My mind set is this. I'll be focusing on work more than ever, worrrrrrk tilllllll immmm riiiiiiiicccccccchhh. hahahahahaha seriously.
Having a boyfriend would complicate things, it'll add up to stress.
and yes, the feeling of being inlove........ is bullcrap.
hahaha
WELL right now, im kinda in a phase where i enjoy the feeling of being inlove with love, no specific person in particular.
just plain love itself, love for friends. yes! love for family. yes! love for God and the beliefs i have. yes! love for lovely things like shoes, clothes and food. yes!
love for anything vintage. yes! love for one particular boy from planet mars? NA-UH. NOT FOR NOW. but for real? im not closing any doors on anyone, when love comes, it comes, no matter what your brain tells you, your heart will still skip a beat and do the thump-thump when you find love.
I'd like to DO one thing,
stop looking for love and let it find me.
when i'm ready, when im ok, when im strong
not just because im alone, not because im missing the mushy feeling
i know one day, sooner or later... it'll happen.
SOMEONE will find me, a boy. out of all the fishes in the sea, ill be his mermaid, he would hold my hand and will let me sleep on his shoulder, sing songs to me, call me just to say he misses me, he will write secret notes on my notebook, take stolen pictures of me, cook me breakfast... things like that..
eventually it'll happen, but for now? ill be alone.
A RANDOM STRANGER IN A SEA OF FACES.
