Wednesday, June 15, 2011

a whole new chapter of my life

me and my bf of 3yrs and almost 10 mos. just recently broke up. it wasn't a mutual decision. it was "my decision"... reasons? my new career is eating all my time, new pressures, new adjustments. AND for the longest time, i felt happier when im alone. not that im happy when im not with him, its just that, the happiness in experiencing things on my my own is more real. Enjoying the ride, doing whatever without thinking of someones' approval. I'm not saying that i was on a leash when i was still with him, its just that being in a relationship is so complicated that sometimes couples stick to the norm to pacify the complexities, then it becomes a habit. a routine. no spontaneity. The problem is, I've been in a relationship for too long, it stopped me from being myself. 

ooooohk. am i making sense here?

its been a week now since that fateful day, a leap. a very big leap. 

just like what summer said: 
people change. feelings change.  It doesn't mean that the love once shared wasn't true and real. It simply just means that sometimes when people grow, they grow apart.