this.

To feel warmth inside your arms, and forever call it home.

I Find this photo breath-taking, It's one of those photos that will catch your eyes, make stare at it for a couple of minutes and make you wonder in amazement..

owwwmigaaaasssssssshhh

BECAUSE SUMMER HEAT IS DEHYDRATING.

"Outward beauty is not enough; to be attractive, a woman must use words, wit, playfulness, sweet-talk, and laughter to transcend the gifts of Nature."

Petronius

when you listen to a song you used to listen to ages ago and you get that weird as fuck spine chilling feeling as you remember how your life was at that point in time

Life and death, energy and peace. If I stop today it was still worth it. Even the terrible mistakes that I made and would have unmade if I could. The pains that have burned me and scarred my soul, it was worth it, for having been allowed to walk where I’ve walked, which was to hell on earth, heaven on earth, back again, into, under, far in between, through it, in it, and above.

- Gia Carangi

There’s a million things I’d like to accomplish in life like being rich and successful. Being able to travel the world, watching broadway and eating delicious food. Being in love and not have to worry about much. There are so many things on my list that I feel like I should start now. I keep telling myself one day I will, but when?
I need some sort of assurance that I will one day be able to achieve these dreams. If I don’t change now when will I? I feel the need to accomplish something right now in order to know for sure that I can accomplish something that I intend on doing. I’m just feeling weird about everything. About how I’m living my life mostly.

I accidentally deleted all of my phone messages 2 weeks ago. I'm such an idiot. So i tried every shenanigans to retrieve the messages, but my phone doesn't have a recycle bin, then I discovered.. i had a spam box, Its nice to read unread messages from the past. Its like reading a once lost letter.


Weird enough, its only now i realized that me accidentally deleting my messages meant something, that i have to let go of what kills me.

33.  and little did he know that she loved him with all her heart.

OHH MY GOAT!!!!!!!!

Too many emotions are going through my mind and my heart right now. On the way home earlier I had an idea of how I wanted to write this down. But right now I feel like I’ve gone and jumbled it all up. The words are still there. I just can’t seem to tie them together. This took me a week to construct. 

I believe that I’m a very complex person. I think I tend to see things a little bit differently. Or that I don’t see the things other people seem to. I feel like there’s never a clear line. The line is always blurry.

It scares me sometimes how dependent I am on the people I surround myself with. I have issues with vulnerability and how far I let someone really get to know me. But lately, it just felt like my walls are down and I’m jumping in with both feet not knowing what awaits me down below. I feel like I care so much about them that their well being affects my well being and unfortunately my sanity. But I have also learnt that vulnerability is not a sign of weakness, despite what many might say. I’m still adjusting to it and I can feel that I’m anxious yet excited to see how far I would let myself go. I spent most of my time in the past two years trying to build these walls up. Watching them all fall again does indeed make me feel very concerned. But then again, I might just have something this year that I didn’t before. It is a huge risk I’m taking but I pray that something new and good comes my way (most times the bad makes its way in first).